Jacey got Married

My sweet little cousin Jacey got married this weekend. She is such a doll and we are so happy for her and her new husband Brandon. They are adorable!

Lately

I feel like my life lately is running, what I am wearing, and sleeping because of all the running. A little lame, but I kind of like things like that. On Saturday we ran our long run. We thought we were doing 16, but after we finished my friend clocked it again and it was more like 17 miles-- we'll take either one. I can feel myself SLOWLY starting to get back into the swing of things. I really has been such a LONG process. I feel like I am constantly whining about how long it is taking me to get back into shape- I think its just a little frustrating and mentally consuming- so I apologize for all the poor me posts... It is getting better. I wore some shorts on our run and they rubbed on my legs SO bad- I literally have some of the BIGGEST scabs I have ever had. Its pretty gross, and uncomfortable. Lesson learned- no more shorts without longer spandex. I always have such a hard time getting up to run on Saturday morning- 4:00am comes pretty freaking fast, but I always feel so much better if I get up and go. I am going to try to go to the gym one morning a week. I have tried in the past to do this- but I always try to get myself to go a bunch of times during the week and I just cannot convince myself to go. So, one day a week will hopefully be more doable.

This weekend McKall came and stayed at our house. She is such a doll. Gator LOVED having her there and really would not leave her along. He just could not get close enough to her. She was a good sport with him and gave him attention. We love that sweet girl. She is really so awesome, I hope everyone around realizes just how great she is. I am so lucky to be her aunt.

This past week Sam had a little "incident" at work. He shot himself in the hand with a nail gun. He pulled the nail out himself (I would have died if I saw that). His hand has been pretty sore and SWOLLEN. He is been in quite a bit of pain. We said that if it doesn't start getting a lot better by today he needs to go to the DR and have an x-ray. Poor guy.

I have been having such a hard time figuring out what to wear lately. I feel so indecisive. I literally change 5 times every morning for the past 5 mornings. Its awful- and so messy. This no shopping thing has been freaking me out more than I thought. I need to get a grip. Here's what I am wearing today:

Family Time

A few years ago we started a fun little tradition called "girls night" where all the little girls come to my house and we do girl stuff like nails, face masks, eating candy, watching chick flicks, and dancing. It has been so fun to get together and hang out with those three cuties. The girls have been begging for another girls night- so on Saturday we tried to get one together. Unfortunately I wasn't feeling great (damn gluten in everything) and Sam had his comp all day. Things just were not coming together- so we had to settle for a "mini girls night" with boys too. We made some muddy buddies and painted our nails and did face masks. I think it was still pretty fun- just a little different than usual. Stockden is such a funny boy, you can tell he has grown up around girls. After we painted nails he came in and said "Oh cute nails girls" "Oh Stae, I love those colors" hahaha. After all the play time it was time to get ready for bed, but Stockden was still being so crazy. Luckily he got his "jammers" on pretty easily, the only problem was that his "jammers" has wings and he wanted to "fly". I couldn't help myself and I "flew" him all around my mom's house. I am not sure who had more fun- me or him. The girls walked into the house right as we were flying into the kitchen. They are still making fun of me :). I love spending time with my family. Man, I am so lucky to have them.

I told Stock I wanted to give him a kiss in this one-- he decided he wanted to give me a kiss too :) 

This is more of what I had in mind when we took the first one. I told him I am going to show him these when he is 16 so he can remember how much he loved me back then :) 

Things I love

I went shopping last night because I felt like my day had kind of sucked and of course I found some great stuff. One of my favorites is this blue shirt I am wearing today! I love it! I equally love wearing red lipstick. It makes everything look way better. I also got this adorable bag. I love the chain strap.

I love the rainy weather we're having. Last night we watched it rain and thunder and lighting. It's one of Sam's favorite things. He loves sitting out front during a thunderstorm, and luckily little Gator doesn't mind all the noise either.

I love working out and sweating. It makes me feel so good after. The hard part is getting myself to the gym or outside to run. Once I'm there, I'm good to go.

I love talking  to my sisters. I am so lucky to have such good relationships with my sisters and to have so much in common with them. I really value those relationships and feel really lucky to have them in my life.

I love getting ready for races. Tomorrow I am going to run the Bryce Canyon Half Marathon, and I am pretty excited. I love having races to get ready for and look forward to. This race is particularly beautiful and enjoyable. Last year this was the last race I did before my car accident. That's weird to think that much time has past. It doesn't seem like that long, yet I have made so much progress since that time that it does seem like that long. Weird how time works like that- especially as you get older.

I love having goals. I love having things to work towards and knowing when I have accomplished things. I have a few goals in particular that are always in the back of my head. It is fun to find little ways to accomplish them faster and to see that I am chipping away at them.

I love that Sam is enjoying wakeboarding so much this summer. He has made so many new friends and has been presented with so many amazing opportunities through wakeboarding. I could not be more proud of him. He works really hard at learning new things, but has the  best way of not taking things too seriously. He really has found the perfect balance of fun and progression.

Kids

Having kids has kind of been a weird subject for me. I get A LOT of pressure/comments/suggestions/judgments about being married for four years, 25, and no kids yet. Not that it really is anyone's business, but I feel like I should clarify. I think there is a difference between not wanting kids at all- and wanting them in the right time. I have been in both boats. I think when you are in the first boat you should not have kids... if you don't want them, then by all means do not have them. You aren't doing anyone any favors by doing that. I feel like it is worse for someone to have kids because that's what is expected or that's the next step is when they don't really want them, than the person that just doesn't have kids. I feel like at this point in my life I am in the second boat. I want kids. I also want to have kids in the right time for me and Sam.

I have always been one for preparation. I literally bought most of the stuff I wanted for my house before I got married and had it in a tote for a few months. I wanted to be prepared, in fact I didn't buy toilet paper or paper towels for like a year after I got married because I had started buying it before and saving it. I like to know that my necessities are taken care of before I take huge leaps. I feel like that's a good thing. It is really weird to me that I get a lot of negative feed back for being that way- what gives. Kids to me are one of the biggest leaps- if not the biggest that you will ever take in your lifetime. I feel like a lot of couples don't give that choice the credit it deserves. I want to be ready for kids- I feel like they deserve that. I want to be able to look my kids in the eye and tell them that I PLANNED and PREPARED for them- and not that I wasn't ready but got ready after I was already pregnant. I am by no means faulting those people that choose to do things differently than me, I mean to each his own, but I also am a little tired of being faulted for the way I am choosing to do things. So, here's where I am at.

I want to have kids. I want my kids to have the best life possible. I want my life to be as good as possible. I want to be the best mom possible. I know that I cannot do or have those things without getting ready first. I realize I will never be fully ready for kids, but I can get as ready as possible and set a time frame that works for me and Sam. I appreciate that certain people are interested in our personal life, and I honestly take it as a compliment when people want us to have kids and talk to us about having kids. I am not, however flattered when people fault or degrade where we are, or somehow think we are less of a family without kids. I appreciate advise and words of encouragement, so thank you to those that provide that. When my planned time comes, I will be very happy to welcome kids into the Weldin family, but until then I am happy being married and 25, and I hope our friends and family can be happy with that too. I mean isn't that enough? :)

Sorry about the little rant- Its out of my system and I feel much better thank you. :)

4th of July

Happy Independence Day!! The fourth of July is such a fun holiday. I usually love to sit in some water to celebrate our beautiful country, but this year we headed up to the cabin ( I actually think we usually go to the cabin, but I always want to go swim) We are so lucky to have such a nice place to escape to that is not too far- but just far enough. The cabin has so many fun memories- man if those walls could talk. We had a barbecue and this year we decided to go try to fish as kids pond. I had never been there before- which is weird because its literally up the road from our cabin. It is super cute there. One tradition we have is that we always eat See's Candy on the Fourth. It started one year at Christmas time. Our family has received SO many boxes of See's candy. Us girls would have been happy downing all of them without even worrying about it, but my dad said no. He took a box and put it in the freezer. We all freaked out and asked when we would be able to eat them- in true parent fashion he said The Fourth of July. So, that's just what we did. We opened up the frozen box on the fourth and enjoyed. Ever since then its not the fourth without some frozen See's. 

 We are so blessed to live in one of the most beautiful places on earth. I am glad we got to spend the holiday enjoying this beautiful part of the country and our amazing family! God Bless America!