Jumping on the tramp

While Stock was down, we went and let Hayes jump on the tramp for the first time. He was not a huge fan of it. I think he didn't like feeling so unstable. We jumped for a little bit, but then Hayes had had it and wanted off. Maybe in a couple of years he will think its much more fun. 

I killed it though and did a flip. Hahaha. 

Stock

In addition to Grandma and the spend the night, Hayes got to play with Stock. He thought it was SO cool that Stock was there when he woke up. Stock loves the Ipad and was showing Hayes all the great things you can do- like play Temple Run!

Doughnuts with grandma

The night before my mom's birthday my office had our Christmas party in Las Vegas. My mom agreed to come stay at our house and tend Hayes while we were gone. The icing on the cake for Hayes was not only did grandma stay, but she brought Stockden with her. Hayes thought that was so cool to have a spend the night with both of them. As soon as they got to our house Hayes was telling us "Bye" and pushing Sam out the door. He was ready to party and needed his parents gone to have fun! That silly guy! It also worked out perfectly that my mom was at our house when she woke up on her birthday. To celebrate we all ate doughnuts. Hayes thought it was the best thing ever! 

His favorite is chocolate and his least favorite is maple. 

"The Kids"

November was a crazy month for us. We had a lot of juggling and changes with babysitters and it was hectic to say the least. Luckily, my friend Jandee saved my life and agreed to watch Hayes once a week until things calmed down. It really was the only way we made it through the month. 

Hayes sometimes needs convincing to do what I need him to do, so to get him ready and out the door I told him he was going to play with "the kids!" I'm pretty sure he thought that sounded awesome, so he did pretty much whatever I needed him to. Everyday he went to Jand's she would tell me that he just played and played and played all day, which is basically his heaven. After a time or two of taking him over there, I would tell him where we were going and he would yell "Kids! Kids!!" He was so excited. Hayes LOVES to play with kids. I love in these pictures how much him and Jacee look alike too!! It makes me laugh. 

Happy Hayesie

Being a mom

I was reading a blog by a woman who lost her child tragically this year. It was so heart breaking and I just couldn't even imagine the heart break that she feels on a daily basis. As I was reading, my heart literally broke for her, and it got me thinking about my Hayesie. What a blessing he is to me. He is quite literally the light of my life. In this women's post she talked about how she missed being a mom, and my heart broke again.

It's interesting to see people's reactions to situations like that. I feel an overwhelming feeling of heart break and gratitude. I am grateful that I can learn from her and that I can look inside myself and make sure that what she is grieving right now, I am fully appreciating. I think she would want that, I would. If I was in her shoes, I would want every mother to look at thier child and love them with everything they've got and to not take one second for granted. I would want them to see the loss and to try to improve their relationships with their children and to be there with their kids. I would want something good like that to come from something so terrible. 

That being said, I vow today, to be a better mom. To be there, really be there. I vow to try to never take one second for granted. I vow to try to make something better because I saw her heartbreak. 

It's pretty easy with a boy like Hayesie. There are so many things to love about him. He's silly. He's SO happy. He's curious. He's adventurous. He's wild. He's adorable. He's a sweetie pie. He's funny. He is growing before my very eyes and I can't believe it. Nothing is better than being his mom. Today and everyday I am grateful to be Hayes's mom.