Lately

I feel like my life lately is running, what I am wearing, and sleeping because of all the running. A little lame, but I kind of like things like that. On Saturday we ran our long run. We thought we were doing 16, but after we finished my friend clocked it again and it was more like 17 miles-- we'll take either one. I can feel myself SLOWLY starting to get back into the swing of things. I really has been such a LONG process. I feel like I am constantly whining about how long it is taking me to get back into shape- I think its just a little frustrating and mentally consuming- so I apologize for all the poor me posts... It is getting better. I wore some shorts on our run and they rubbed on my legs SO bad- I literally have some of the BIGGEST scabs I have ever had. Its pretty gross, and uncomfortable. Lesson learned- no more shorts without longer spandex. I always have such a hard time getting up to run on Saturday morning- 4:00am comes pretty freaking fast, but I always feel so much better if I get up and go. I am going to try to go to the gym one morning a week. I have tried in the past to do this- but I always try to get myself to go a bunch of times during the week and I just cannot convince myself to go. So, one day a week will hopefully be more doable.

This weekend McKall came and stayed at our house. She is such a doll. Gator LOVED having her there and really would not leave her along. He just could not get close enough to her. She was a good sport with him and gave him attention. We love that sweet girl. She is really so awesome, I hope everyone around realizes just how great she is. I am so lucky to be her aunt.

This past week Sam had a little "incident" at work. He shot himself in the hand with a nail gun. He pulled the nail out himself (I would have died if I saw that). His hand has been pretty sore and SWOLLEN. He is been in quite a bit of pain. We said that if it doesn't start getting a lot better by today he needs to go to the DR and have an x-ray. Poor guy.

I have been having such a hard time figuring out what to wear lately. I feel so indecisive. I literally change 5 times every morning for the past 5 mornings. Its awful- and so messy. This no shopping thing has been freaking me out more than I thought. I need to get a grip. Here's what I am wearing today:

Finally, a good run

Since my car crash I have had a really hard time working out. Part of it is the physical side. I do still have problems from my crash and I really lost all of my fitness by being out of it for so long. Part of it I think is mental. I haven't done it in so long, but I still remember what it was like to work out before the crash and now when I try and its a lot harder, and I get more frustrated. Well, last night was a turning point for me. I had the BEST run I have had in a long time! I have really struggled running and have really tried to do other things because it has been so hard. The problem with that is that ,the only way I can really loose weight is by running. All of the other activities (elliptical, spinning, walking, biking) seem to help me maintain but I don't see a lot of progress weight wise. I have run enough to be able to keep training, but I will admit it, I have been slacking because its hard. On Saturday we ran the Bryce Canyon Half, and it was so hard for me. I just do not have the stamina that I use to have. I give up way too easily. I finished, but I by no means pushed myself very hard. I was disappointed.

After that run, I decided it was time to stop being lazy and kick things back into gear. I decided I needed to do some more consistent running through out the week. So, Monday I ran 7 miles on the treadmill. It sucked. I had to do a lot of stopping and starting and I hated that. So, last night I tried again. I got on and started and it SUCKED even worse than Monday. I could not run hardly at all, so I got off and did the elliptical for 45 min. I did not want to leave without at least trying again (and I like to do an hour of cardio) So, I hoped back on the treadmill, and to my surprise it felt good. I felt strong again. I ran, and I didn't have to stop and start. It felt amazing. I needed that! I am so glad to have a good run and to remember what it is like to like running and to feel good at running. I really forgot just how much I love running!

Things I love

I went shopping last night because I felt like my day had kind of sucked and of course I found some great stuff. One of my favorites is this blue shirt I am wearing today! I love it! I equally love wearing red lipstick. It makes everything look way better. I also got this adorable bag. I love the chain strap.

I love the rainy weather we're having. Last night we watched it rain and thunder and lighting. It's one of Sam's favorite things. He loves sitting out front during a thunderstorm, and luckily little Gator doesn't mind all the noise either.

I love working out and sweating. It makes me feel so good after. The hard part is getting myself to the gym or outside to run. Once I'm there, I'm good to go.

I love talking  to my sisters. I am so lucky to have such good relationships with my sisters and to have so much in common with them. I really value those relationships and feel really lucky to have them in my life.

I love getting ready for races. Tomorrow I am going to run the Bryce Canyon Half Marathon, and I am pretty excited. I love having races to get ready for and look forward to. This race is particularly beautiful and enjoyable. Last year this was the last race I did before my car accident. That's weird to think that much time has past. It doesn't seem like that long, yet I have made so much progress since that time that it does seem like that long. Weird how time works like that- especially as you get older.

I love having goals. I love having things to work towards and knowing when I have accomplished things. I have a few goals in particular that are always in the back of my head. It is fun to find little ways to accomplish them faster and to see that I am chipping away at them.

I love that Sam is enjoying wakeboarding so much this summer. He has made so many new friends and has been presented with so many amazing opportunities through wakeboarding. I could not be more proud of him. He works really hard at learning new things, but has the  best way of not taking things too seriously. He really has found the perfect balance of fun and progression.