Its just a bad day {August 28, 2013}

I feel like being a working mama is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I know that working is something that is so good for me, for so many reasons more than just financially. I need to work at least to a certain point. Well, today was just a hard day. My sweet Hayes did not take one nap and spent most of the day crying, yelling, or eating. He was not content and I literally didn't get half of my work done because I spent all my time trying to keep him somewhat quiet so the rest of my office could function, and doing a poor job at that. I spilled on my dress, and I was literally sweating and looking like a hot mess trying to balance the whole thing. I was a disaster to say the least. I called Sam crying and begging him to come pick up Hayes so I could at least get something done and keep my sanity. It was the longest half hour of my life waiting for Sam to get to my office. I felt frustrated with Hayes, and disappointed in myself for not being able to handle it better. On days like today I feel myself over-reacting and saying things like "I feel like a horrible mom" or " I just can't keep doing this." I feel myself starting to spiral down, and its not only depressing, but scary. I don't want to be the "Debbie Downer" or anything, but I also don't claim to be "Super mom" ether. So, where's the balance? Well, thank heavens for my sweet husband who simplifies everything that I try to complicate and says something so powerful, and true "Its just a bad day." That's it. I'm not being a horrible mom or a terrible employee. We just had a bad day, and tomorrow will be different. Man oh man, I needed that.

Where would I be without simple truths, and the fact that it was just one bad day, not a bad life.

So, now that I realize that my world is not caving in around me, I will celebrate with some adorable pictures of my sweet Hayes, who makes life so much better and brighter than I ever thought possible!